big deals

in some situations i feel that i have a very good sense of just, not complaining, not caring, not making things a BIG DEAL.

the reason i believe i am good at this is because my emotions are so much to handle. they're overwhelming. i have better things to put my energy towards. energy is precious. put it towards the things that matter; the things that make your heart stronger.

my energy is too precious. it is not worth it for me to put my energy towards a topic or situation that isn't that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things.

there is a breaking point, always, of course, and I believe that can be measured  in the respect you have for yourself. for me, i am showing myself more respect than not by choosing to not make certain sutations a big deal; choosing to not REACT. because a reaction is energy lost-- and to what? it is when it becomes disrespectful to yourself to not say something that it becomes necessary to react -- but even then, a reaction does not mean an aggressive, spiteful, angry one. A reaction is choosing to address the situation because it has now become worth your energy.

my energy is so important to me. I know i am limitless; but honestly, it doesn't always feel that way. i must take care of myself; i must charge myself; love myself enough to not let myself get rubbed the wrong way so easily -- except with Sumo apparenty, idk what that is about -- its just worth it.